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The Faerie of Infinite Grace
I have been on my spiritual path all my life it seems, but with a focused practice for the past eighteen years. One of the biggest hurdles I have had to deal with on a personal level is worthiness, which manifests in me as doubt. I have made great strides in this area, however old ways of thinking sometimes arise. When that happens, I notice it, bless it and let it go as an old story.
Lessons continue to unfold and offer experiences that provide opportunities to unravel the old that no longer serves and to anchor the true resonance of authentic self.
The other day I was doing a shamanic journey about an issue I wanted clarity on for myself. In the journey I met a faerie being that emitted a bright rainbow colored light. It assisted me in recovering energy I had lost over the years and through many lifetimes. It was a sweet meeting, the faerie emanated waves of unconditional love and grace.
A short while later I looked out my window and was caught by the brilliant rainbow prism of sunlight shining through a drop of water on a tree branch. The whole spectrum of color in that drop was dazzling and alive, and aimed directly at my eyes. The first thought I had was that it was the rainbow faerie helper I had just met in my journey. They were stepping through the veil of the Otherworld and confirming that they were my ally and that the work we did was anchored. The second thought I had was wondering if I just saw what I wanted to see, if I manifested the coincidence.
I tracked these two thoughts in a non-attached way, finding it interesting that the first thought felt like the synchronicity of Spirit that I have had so many times on my path. And that the second thought felt like the old limiting doubt, that feeling of going along with the status quo even when it did not resonate.
I took a breath and felt into my center asking for clarity. I had a knowing then that felt like my energy was completely aligned and that the rainbow drop I just saw was indeed the faerie ally. This simple experience of looking out the window and receiving the message was another signpost along my path.
I imagined what it would feel like to have no doubts about my intuitive skills, knowing that I am worthy of receiving true messages, and of having faerie friends that show up in ordinary reality. I just sat with that for a while, weaving it into a daily intention.
What if we decided to live every day completely trusting our intuition? What if the recognition of our connection to everything becomes so much a part of who we are that we cannot help but live in Divine timing, never fearing, knowing that every moment is unfolding with infinite grace?
"Frozen Raindrop" by audreyjm529 is licensed under CC BY 2.0.
Many of us have come to realize the true nature of the soul as infinite. If we are a practitioner or mystic who works in the quantum realms of non-ordinary reality, we have experienced the soul's past lives. And we have received insights and healing from them for ourselves and for others. We may also have connected with future lives for information and assistance. And for most people who have any kind of spiritual practice, the eternal nature of the soul is a common realization. Reincarnation has become a mainstream belief.
Yet, with all that knowing, loss is still difficult.
And so with our infinite soul view we try to re-frame death as a celebration, a graduation from "Earth school". That is a lovely way to look at the process of dying. But that doesn't mean we don't grieve. We feel the loss of our loved one in our bones. It's an ache in our heart and arms when we can't hold them close, wrap them in a hug. Their absence leaves a hole in our lives. It is supposed to. That means that we were well-loved and that we loved well.
Sometimes we can get caught up in a downward spiral of grief that can last way past what is natural and healthy for us. That can happen if there are unresolved issues between us and our departed loved ones. Grief can get tangled up in unhealthy and untenable guilt and regret. As we do our inner work, forgiveness practice becomes key in smoothing out those tangles. Forgiveness is potent energy and it heals across time and dimensions, and it is especially healing when we forgive ourselves.
It can be comforting to find a medium, that is someone who can connect with the spirit of our loved ones in the spirit realms. They can let us know that the soul of our loved one got to where it needed to go. They can also relay messages, which is important when death occurs with words left unsaid.
Mediums can also help us prepare while the death process is happening by making sure the etheric gateway is open to where they need to go, and that there are healthy ancestors and helping spirits waiting to guide them. We can also call on the helping spirits ourselves and ask that they be with our loved ones and help their passage. if we don't know who to call on, we can always call on angels and archangels and trust they will be there when we ask for help.
I am fortunate to have friends who have strong mediumship skills. I called on them recently to help me ready my beloved 16-year old cat for her final journey to the spirit realms. It had been a long process of increasing care, and giving her the chance to pick her own time. She was the Queen of our family though, so she was having a hard time letting go of us. My medium friends were able to relay messages back and forth over the last two months of her time here, but some additional messages needed to be given before she felt she could go. They also confirmed the gateway was open and let me know who would be there to meet her for her journey. I was then able to create a ceremony for her "graduation".
She had been a part of our family since she was 5 weeks old and so her absence is disorienting. In the few days after she crossed, I felt like the rug had been pulled out from under me and I struggled to find my footing, to feel grounded. And I am surprised at the depth of my grief.
I felt her energy a few times since she crossed over, just coming back to check in on us. I am grateful for that sensitivity of knowing. I'm also grateful that our relationship continues even without her physical body presence. And I am okay with my sadness, I know that it will eventually lessen. Years ago one of my friends gave me the teaching of the grief altar that she learned from her teacher, Linda Fitch. I have set that altar up, holding a ceremonial space in the house for as long as needed.
Loss causes changes in our lives on an energetic level more than we realize. Our heart chakra may initially contract with pain, but as we process our grief, it expands bigger and brighter than it was before. That is the gift they leave us as they depart, we just do not see its value until later.
Good journeys Chai, and thank you.
Becoming the Void of All Possibilities
We have just marked the winter solstice and have celebrated the sun moving slowly but steadily back towards its pinnacle of strength. We measure this inching in minutes today, but long ago our ancestors measured it by stars and stones, in the winds and sprouts. Even though the sun is returning, it is also the time when winter deepens.
The nights are still long and it can seem that the darkness falls heavy on us with its relentlessness. It is no wonder that this is the time of year we surround ourselves with bright twinkle lights on houses and trees. The human handicap of duality has created the association of light and dark with good and evil. The darkness has become something to vanquish.
But the darkness is a gift. It is the Divine potential of Creation. If we can see it as such and step into it, powerful magic awaits within its realms. The invitation is there in the sudden early twilight.
We find a soft space, burrow into it, turn out the lights.
Instead of a drumbeat or music, we choose silence.
Our breathing and our heartbeat might draw our focus at first, leading us deeper, relaxed yet aware of all of our senses. We are aware of the stillness.
We invite the darkness to penetrate our entire being. We lose the boundary of our skin, our mental constructs.
We might register it as a feeling of absolute nothing at first. Uncomfortable as our atoms and consciousness become unbound.
As we surrender to the dissolving of self, we expand to become everything.
We realize the darkness is the potential of all possibilities. It is the moment of Divine inspiration before the multidimensional tapestry of the cosmos is woven into form.
And we too are the weavers.
A thread comes to us indistinguishable in the inky void, but we have the knowing it is there, and we can bring it back with us.
There might be a feeling of our essence being drawn together, a wooshing of the time-space continuum coming together in the space of our cells.
A flicker of light in the distance draws us forward. Growing brighter, we are birthed anew into the light.
The thread still in our hand, we are poised at the moment of our own creation.
Our tapestry awaits.
"Darkness Vs. Candle" by yowlanku is licensed under CC BY-SA 2.0.
To help you tend to soul issues that may manifest in physical, emotional, mental or spiritual aspects of your life, and to give you tools to empower your path to harmony and well-being.
-There are so many kindred spirits doing the work out there. I include these links to help our community connect with one another.
FAIRY CONGRESS - Offers a summer weekend gathering in person with workshops, circles and of course faeries and nature beings! They also offer a winter virtual weekend with amazing guest speakers like Orion Foxwood, David Spangler and R.J. Stewart. I highly recommend joining the online network to participate in monthly workshops, circles, and book clubs.
SACRED HOOP Magazine Guide to Shamanism Compilation- http://www.sacredhoop.org/Pages/FreeGuide.html
Owner Valeria Pearson lovingly created SOLE TO SOUL YOGA studio with a community focus. There are classes for all levels and events that lift the spirit. I am delighted to partner with her to offer a kirtan chanting circle once a month.
My friend and herbalist mentor, LAWRENCE BIRCH is a Certified Clinical Herbalist, plant whisperer and shamanic practitioner. If you need custom tincture blends or are interested in a wildcrafting apprenticeship, he is the teacher extraordinaire:
ROGER WHEELOCK and GAYLE RUTH are shamanic practitioners and teachers in the Pachakuti Mesa Tradition. https://www.rainmother.com/ I am grateful to be able to take part in ceremony with them, and to support their love for the Peruvian people through the World Ayni Association.
NEW WORLD KIRTAN = Kitzie's podcasts include interviews with artists and kirtan music. I love attending her weekly Satsang group and the New World Kirtan Band concerts -
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